Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I hate today

and there's one, two, three, four, five todays left.

Oh, god.

By the end of the day today, I hated my job. I felt incompetent, sick to my stomach (though that was not from the teaching or students), irritated and beyond frustrated.

It's not only today, either. All week I've been dreading two of my classes. I've sort of lucked out; I had the extra-bad class for one instead of two periods the last two days. But tomorrow is another double and I just can't stand them. They can't stand me, either.

My good teacher friend is moving to Texas. My other good teacher friend is moving to New Orleans. My one other school friend will be at home with her baby. We're getting an AP who is...not as awesome as our current one (but at least the good one will still be our EL @ supervisor).

Is it me or does it sound like I need a new job? If I had the energy, I'd cry.


Jen said...

Is it just me, or is there really no happy medium with teaching? It seems people either LOVE being a teacher, or they LOATHE it. I don't envy you teachers AT ALL. Though, I do envy the summers off ...

17 more years said...

I wish you could transfer to my school- we have a 7th grade ELA position open- you would be great, plus parking is not a problem and there are lots of places to eat nearby, lol.

How are you feeling?

X said...

My last friend at my school is moving to Wisconsin. Luckily it's b/c her husband got a position at the university where my in-laws I'll be able to see her again...but still. I can relate to you on that one.

My bad class is on a trip tomorrow. Hallelujah.

I wish you were coming to my school, but I think it'd be a bit of a commute for you.

Jules the Crazy said...

aw, you guys! thanks for being good blogfriends. :)
i looked online at new schools and thought about my resume. not that i did anything with it, mind you! :) made me feel proactive, at least.
i'll probably stay here and try to reinvigorate myself. meh, who knows. thanks again for all the good thoughts.

Miss B said...

What it sounds like to me (a frustrated teacher-to-be trying hopelessly to get a job for September with less than favorable results thus far) is that you - above all - need a vacation. A long one. Without any children around whatsoever.

If you're still feeling this way in early August, I say, start that wonderful "I'm updating my resume and personalizing cover letters" bit to seek out a better environment.

Have you thought about relocating or do you want to stay in NYC to teach?

ms. v. said...

Sorry you're feeling so crappy. I agree with Ms. B, though, it sounds like you're just really worn down and sick and it's the hotter-than-hell last five days with the kids... the school year dragging to a close. Go back and read some of your blog posts from earlier in the year - it seems like you had a really successful year overall. You made a lot of progress with some difficult classes.

And I can so identify with people moving away from NYC. Over the years, I've seen so many people come and go.... and two more of my good friends are moving away August 1st. :-(

hang in there!

CaliforniaTeacherGuy said...

No, you probably don't need a new job. You just need a rest, a long rest. A summer break is just what the doctor orders!