So now I know why people are here, it's the article in the newspaper.
I was a little shocked that the article led with me cursing and ranting...but I suppose that's what I get for a)not censoring my posting and b)interviewing for an article about the blog. I refuse to censor myself here, except for the fact that I don't use real names (my own, my kids, my colleagues, my school). So read at your own discretion!
I suppose it might seem like I'm a violent, hateful person if you take some of those quotes out of context, but I am fully not. I get angry and upset, just like anyone else. The scales are more tipped that way than being Susie-Sunshine, it seems. I don't have too many happy-smiley stories to share about my first year teaching, but when something good happens, I definitely write about that.
I just hope everyone out there understands that all people have good and bad days at work. Being a teacher, you can be in the best mood ever, but if your students are having a rough day, then so will you. It's not like working in an office job, where a bad day might be triggered by a lack of toner or too many voicemails or something. It's dealing with people: adults and kids. And if they get on you, or they react to you poorly, then that comes back to bite you in the ass.
Here's something from last week that I keep forgetting to write about:
When I'm talking/instructing/whatever, and there's noise, I stop. Mid-word, mid-sentence, whatever. Sometimes I'll shoot a Teacher Look of Death at the noisemaker, sometimes I'll snap, "I'll WAIT." The kids will nudge each other or look guilty for the most part, and quiet up.
So Wednesday, I'm standing in front of Class C, and I stop midword to wait for the chatter to die down (they are a very chatty bunch). And almost immediately, a girl pipes up, "I'm waiting!!"
I clapped my hand over my mouth to keep from laughing out loud. The rest of the class laughed too. Too funny! I said, "Well, at least you guys are paying attention!"
Later, I had called on someone to speak, and there was other chatter going on. Another girl yelled out, "I should only hear one voice at a time!" Which, of course, is what I say all the time.
This cracks me up. I am thrilled that they know me well enough to imitate me to each other. I'm relieved that they're actually listening to hear me say those things. Maybe that means they hear other things I say too, like you know, lessons and stuff.
See? I'm not evil or anything. I'm human, that's all!